A new year, a new me? ( That would be such a waste of the old me, I think)

After we got back from our trip to L.A. I talked to my boss, Neil, and told him that I wanted to quit working after the holidays. There are many reasons why I wanted to quit. The first reason being that for the first time since we've been married, David is actually on a normal schedule, and I want to be home with him when he is home and not working all kinds of crazy hours. Plus, I really want to be at home to take care of things for him so that he can really focus on anesthetist school. I know that there are many women who are more than capable of working full time and still manage to take care off all the things around the house and even children! Unfortunately, I am not one of those women. I have limitations, and I am perfectly willing to admit to and accept them. When I am working I don't clean the house regularly, laundry usually only gets done on the one or two days I have off, and there is rarely a home cooked meal. I, quite frankly, am not content to live like that. Secondly, it comes as no surprise to anyone reading this that I am less than emotionally stable. I have had an especially difficult time with my emotions since I have been in Birmingham. Getting married, moving away from my family, having an extremely stressful job teaching which I started just days before the beginning of school, and most importantly having a husband who I hardly ever saw all contributed to my fragile emotional state. Now I will tell anyone that I have been so much happier since I have been at my current job. I have amazing coworkers who I get along with terrifically. I actually feel like having people I can talk to and joke around with is very therapeutic for me. I have wonderful bosses who, for the most part, I love dearly. I also have more free time to spend how I choose, and much less stress at work. Yet somehow, I still have managed to feel depressed and extremely emotional. I would try taking anti-depressants again, but in the past, the ones that I tried made me feel tired and want to sleep all the time. I can't do that if I have a job that I need to go to almost every day. So those are the two main reasons why I wanted to quit: to have time to spend with David and take care of my duties at home, and to improve emotionally. Neil was very understanding, and even offered to let me continue working there one day a week. So I finished working there through the holidays, and as of January 2nd I have began what David calls my new job as his personal assistant, and what I am calling my mental health break.

So, I worked New Year's Eve night until close. We closed at 9, but because we closed with Neil we did not leave until 10:40! I was hungry so I ordered some food for David and me. Crissy, my coworker and new BFF, went with me to pick it up and we got a drink together while we waited. After we ate, David still wanted to go out, so we drove to my friend Brandon's party. We were actually on our way there when the clock struck midnight. Not exactly how I imagined ringing in the new year, but honestly it was perfect. Just the two of us alone, together. We told each other how much we loved one another and reflected on how amazing our past year has been together and how much we are looking forward to the challenges and blessings we will have together in the year to come. :) We also had a great time at Brandon's party. David especially had a good time telling embarrassing stories about me. Speaking of the New Year, I do not make New Year's resolutions or goals, because I know if I do I will most definitely break them. I do have many things that I hope to achieve in the year ahead. Pray that I am able to accomplish at least some of them.

David and me, New Year's morning 2010

David has completed his first week of classes. Sunday we went to a get together where we socialized with his classmates along with his instructors and the students graduating ahead of him. I was pleasantly surprised at how nice everyone seemed, and I think that David is going to really enjoy his time in school. I am already facing the harsh reality that he will be spending a lot of time studying and not nearly as much time with me as I originally chose to believe. Regardless, I am so happy that our goals are becoming a reality. He is in CRNA school, and I am a stay-at-home wife/mommy (to Charlie). Life is pretty much everything I could hope for it to be.

My birthday was Tuesday. I turned 28 years old! It is so difficult for me to believe that I have been in this world for that long. I had an amazing birthday. My friend Crissy and I had a lunch date which pretty much turned into an all day affair. I am so happy that she is in my life. I have never felt as funny or interesting as I do when we're together. Sorry, Crissy. I know that sounds really lame, but I love you. :) Then David treated me to my second annual birthday dinner at my favorite restaurant, Sumo. I decided that as long as we live here, that will be my birthday tradition. I hate feeling like I am old (which I do), but I have had many blessings so far in my life, and I believe that the next 28 years will be even better, Lord willing!

David and me, at Sumo for my birthday. January 5, 2010

I think that brings me pretty up-to-date on the goings on in my life. I hope everyone has an incredible 2010.