Back in August of last year, I wrote a post called Living by Faith, Not by Fear, in which I talked about having faith and trusting David to lead our family. In the post, I said, " I will have to follow him wherever it may take us, and trust that it is all part of God's plan for us." That was all in the context of where I thought our future was headed; David graduating Anesthetist school nine months from then. Little did I know, that God was about to redirect David's path in a big way, and putting what I said into action was going to require even more faith and trust than I had originally thought.
Flash forward to a few months later, when I'm writing about a difficult time, and asking for peace and direction. Even within a couple of days, God had already provided me with peace and reassurance through the words of godly women for whom I have much respect; such as, "It’s an opportunity to trust the unseen hand that guides us."
It wasn't until March that I shared that David was no longer in Nurse Anesthetist school, and that he had been accepted into a PA program in another state. The faith and trusting just keeps adding up, doesn't it?! It's like God was really putting me to the test...Did I really mean what I had said about following David wherever it takes us, or were those just words?
Let me tell you, I meant it, with every fiber of my being I meant it, but that didn't mean it was easy. The past 10 months have been a roller coaster of emotion. So much uncertainty...but I knew I had to keep trusting, even though I wasn't sure of the outcome.
I'm here to say, I am so grateful that I did. Here we are, a little over a year after I wrote that post. I have trusted my husband's calling to a different program of study and career path. I have followed him and left our former home, and have moved to a different state, even further away from our families. But it has so been worth it.
We absolutely love our new city...much more than either of us liked Birmingham. We have found the perfect rental home with an amazing landlady. One of my heart's desires was to have a big, fenced-in yard for the boys, and I honestly thought that wouldn't happen when we moved, but it did! Our yard is at least 5 times as big as our old yard, and our landlady was kind enough to help us have a fence built! We have already made some wonderful friends; nearly as many as we made our entire time in Birmingham...All just reaffirming that we are right where God wants us to be.
And today was David's first day of PA school! I am so excited that God has brought us here and has lead us down this path. I look forward to whatever lies ahead of us in the future. And I am proud to be by David's side, doing my best to support him, every step of the way.
Just last night, I was sitting and thinking about all of our blessings, and about how happy I am, and I thought, "I am in such a good place, right now". As soon as I had thought that, immediately another thought popped into my head..."Oh no!" Why? Because I thought that if things were going this well, then that meant that something unpleasant was about to come along to ruin it. Then I had to scold myself. Hard. How stupid of me to squander the joy of being on the mountain top, by worrying because I know that eventually another valley will come! Especially since I know, that God will be there to help us through the valleys that come along, and will even use them to make us better and stronger!
Just this morning, I read at A Holy Experience, "God only allows pain if He's allowing something new to be born." How true! :)
No comments:
Post a Comment